10 more days until my birthday.
argh... i feel so shitty. i seriously don't want to turn 20. :\
i just know it'll turn out like my last birthday did... last year i had to make my own fucking birthday cake. 20 is a huge age for me... i seriously never expected to even live this long, and if it goes down with nothing happening, i think i might cry.
*sigh* just dismiss this as idle bitching.
I spent most of my birthdays alone. Most of the time people forgot about them. One year, I had a friend of mine whose birthday was exactly one week before mine on a weekend. I took him out... spent oodles of money on him. He completely spaced mine that next weekend.