i think my grandma is indeed human now. she was craving physical contact today. i have never before witnessed that woman hug anyone. it was kinda disturbing. she spilled her heart out to me and i wanted to believe that i was listening to an old woman who had finally learned the error of her ways, but i couldn't shake the thought that she was probably just trying to get me to pity her so i would be more vulnerable and she could maybe manipulate me into staying. it's horrible that i have to think that way about my own grandmother. it's honestly sad that my family is so dysfunctional. I think she finally realizes that i'm leaving for good, and that i'm never coming back. i think it scares her that i've finally gotten the strength to get away from her like none of her children did. i sound like such a callous bitch right now. i don't care. i know it's justified.
like i thought, my worrying was for nothing. :) i'm a retard.