March 18th, 2004


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today i stood on a window sill on the fifth floor, with my face pressed against the glass, and i looked down.

my head and toes were pressed against the glass, and i could see straight down below me.

it made me really think about things. and, it made me feel very... alive. i could feel every inch of skin, every little hair...

but... i eventually freaked myself out and had to step away because i'm terrified of being up high.

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i had two fucking bizarre dreams last night:

dream 1: there was a bit of sidewalk (two squares) surrounded by that weird roping off stuff that is in stuffy art a galleries, the kind with chrome posts with the red velvetish rops that swags between, in the the middle of a park. it was night and these three guys were flogging (i remember this word from my dream for some reason) a filing cabinet that was sitting in the middle of the sidewalk with 2x4s that each had one nail in the end. i think one of these guys was jens, the annoying german kid from school

dream 2: i was living with kelly (neonjellibean) and stile (yeah, the one from, and my old pekingnese was there, and stile had a fluffy little kitten. he was all hitting on kelly... and then she went to bed. and he came out and sat on this table, and i was laying on the floor eating cereal and was telling me that he needed to mail something on thursday at 9p and to not let him forget because it was extremely important. i promised that i wouldn't forget to remind him, and started watching the animals play. then he gave me the stack of papers he needed to mail...which was just some stuff that looked like it had been printed out from a website, and i asked him if thursday at 9 was right... and he got pissed off at me for forgetting, and i started crying, and he felt bad and hugged me.

....i really have no idea.

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i spanked that advanced print production final's ass like a 4 y/o in big k.


i finished in under an hour and a half... and we had 3 hours to do it.

...dude, this monitor just flipped off and the cd rom drive popped out. o_O

before class there was a guy who's in his last quarter here.. i got into a long happy conversation with him while i was pretending to proofread. i actually did manage to proofread some.. but not a lot.

i learned a lot of stuff. was interesting conversation.

i'm waiting on kat and kelly to finish what they're doing so we can go out on the town.

kelly is actually moving up here in 2 weeks. w00t for her for getting out of conyers.

wow... this is like the most banal post ever. i'm really too o_O for deep thought at the moment. meh... i've been boring everyone with my random soul searching anyways..

...okay, sterling just came in here for a brief cameo. that was... odd.

argh.. my tummy is eating itself. ...must ....get