It's cold and drizzly here. it's been cold and drizzly for almost a week now. kinda depressing being outside.
the apartment is a mess right now. today is my cleaning day because no one's ever home on fridays and i am until like 2am. I haven't started cleaning yet. I'm actually supposed to still be in school. i skipped out on half of my color and design lab cuz i have a headache.
i'm trying to stay offline as much as possible during the day because we only have one phone line. i'm on late at night though... usually. i don't have much time for it anymore. strange not having time for what was once all my life was. it's nice to step away and see how retarded everything is. a lot of things that used to bother me don't anymore. i don't care about what people on the net think of me at all anymore. i'm just here doing what i always have been and if that pisses people off and *gasp* hurts my standing on camwhores, so be it. i've never had a net persona. i think people that do are retarded. the net is where you can be yourself, not put on a front to try to please everyone. it's a good place to vent.
being anti-social and bitchy to just about everyone i've met has really worked. i've managed to avoid all the fucktards that my roomates attract. i figure if anyone gets past the bitchiness they're coo enough to befriend. not many people ever make it past the bitchiness. The only friends i have up here are my roomates.
i gotta go back to chs and do a presentation for aia before the end of the year. that should be interesting. the last time i was there i really didn't feel like i belonged. i suppose i'll feel even more of that when i go back. i miss my old buddies, the ones that i swore i wouldn't lose touch with and i did anyway. Like April and Dane and all my old group. Not a damn one of them has expended any energy towards me. oh well... i suppose they've forgotten.
shit's great with shawn. we've been having all kinds of fun little adventures. I never realized exactly how much better it would be living closer to him. Eventhough a lot of times we just lay around his house and ride around atl. we've ridden aorund atl at least 4 days and we always see something different. This city's fucking huge. If i had a car it'd be a lot better. Marta sucks ass and Rachel is never here and i'm scared to walk through the ghetto so about the only time i do go anywhere is with shawn. i wanna be able to explore on my own sometimes... and i need to get a job. i don't suppose i'll be getting one any time soon though. Even in atl it's hard to get a job if you have bright ass red hair. Such bullshit. like my appearence affects my job performance.
i've been rambling for 30 mins now. i think i'm gonna stop. i need to start cleaning. wish me luck.
