life's not so bad. Great-grandma's flying in from cali tomorrow. my ears really hurt. Umm... I'll be a red head in about a month. so more piccys to come. Nothing's perfect you know? as much as you'd like to pretend everything's perfect it's not. It's all just an illusion. everything takes compromise. It's not a pleasant thing though. It makes me wonder why humans pursue relationships if they know that 9 times out of 10 they're not going to work even if they give up their identities for the other person. People are used, abused, broken, and left bleeding and yet they come back for more. Is the instinct to couple really that strong? "they fail to see the anguish in my eyes"