i'm about to be out of school for a month. i'm killing time in the lab while people in my class finish their finals. it's pretty damn gay. i need to be at home packing or looking for apts or sleeping. i've found out that this chick i know has an lj but i dunno what her name is on this. she's sitting over there. maybe i should go see. i'm bored off my ass. I need to redesign my webpage. i wish i had time to. I can't escape bad rap music here. i miss good music. i miss my friends. i don't have any sort of a social life here. it's like me and shawn against the world. that's not something i'm used to. i'm used to it being me, my bf, and 50 of my closest friends against the world. moving here has been a huge adjustment.
i don't want to grow up. i want to stop having to think about money. i don't feel like me anymore. i feel like a shell. like my creativity died. i have nothing to whore out anymore. no inspiration. i'm too concerned with where i'm going to sleep and how i'm going to eat to bother with anything else. we have no food at all and no means to get any. no car= teh suck.
and shawn's car keeps fucking up and he's pissy all the time now and i feel like it's my fault because i need him to be able to get stuff that i need. he says he doesn't mind, but still. i feel bad asking him to wake up early to look for an apartment. i feel bad because all the miles he's put on that car coming to see me and now it's fucking up. like, i fucked it up.
and i'm stressed. my head hurts all the time. i'm too wound up to sleep. i have 283409865394863095 things i need to be doing all at once. i dunno. i just dunno.
Hey Fuzz, sounds like things are pretty rough right now, but I think you can get thru them.
One thing I have learned that when you think its you aginst the world, there are friends you hadn't counted on being there for you. Whether they are there for you physically or just offering moral/emothional support, they are there. I am certainly rooting for you and Shawn. I imagine also that other people who read this journal are doing the same.
Hang in there. Remember, no rain means no rainbows.
hey! i go to the art institute of atlanta, also. i'm studying for a bachelor's in multimedia & web design and will be starting my 5th quarter in the winter 2003 session.
so you're looking for a room mate? it's hard to find a cool/cheap place in atlanta. the houses near little five kick ass! parties everywhere and all the houses have hard wood flooring and they're just beautiful inside. not to mention that the drive to school isn't that far from little five. 15 minute drive tops.
the AiA can be real shite. like the CS108 class and other classes that are bullshit. you sit there wondering why do i have to take this class? I ALREADY KNOW THIS STUFF! plus the school is really slack on letting you know what is going on. i never know what is going on at that school.