today i died and today i was resurrected. i got to thoroughly explain most of my poems to a person today for the first time and i got my first voluntary hug from adrienne. i almost got in a wreck. i'm having bad car problems this week it seems. durden's fine. i've been banned from talking to a few people because of personal problems that ensue whenever i talk to them. everything's cool again and i'm glad. i regretted a lot that i said last night. sorry cab. apparently my life still sporatically turns to shit. though it's not as common as it once was. as i was showing april through my poems i wondered how i could have loved so many people so intensely in such a short period of time. it's like the more intensly i love at first the faster it fizzles out and i'm left in the ashes asking myself where is my mind?